Monday, 28 September 2009

The Downfall to a Really Good Nap...

It's now 1:38 am....yes in the morning and here I sit wide eyed on my bed. Why you may ask.....because I took a very long nap today. Clearly my body got confused and thought that my nap was really bed time.....I just kept sleeping because it was one of those sleeps where you just can't wake up....your whole body is in it! And now I sit...awake. It's been an interesting evening really....I actually haven't had one like it in a while. Are you ready to hear what I did......I watched tv and chatted with my best friend....haha! I know you were expecting something more but I haven't had a night where I just sat and watched tv in a while and it was kind of nice. I watched Extreme Home Makeover; it was the season premiere and it was quite good. They do such great work on that show, it gives you a warm feeling inside to see the good that they're doing. So I watched tv and then I went upstairs to get ready for bed about 3 hours ago and found that I was wide awake and then I somehow stumbled upon a movie called "If Only" and I watched it on youtube. It's a good movie but quite sad at the end, it does offer a good message though. So now I sit and look at the clock and wonder what time it will be when I actually do fall asleep? Any guesses?

Well tomorrow begins another week. I'm still on the job hunt and waiting for an interview from a particular organization. I hope that they call this week. It's interesting when you become an adult and enter the workforce. I mean I only know that it's interesting to think about getting a job and joining the workforce because I don't really know if it's interesting when you actually have a job and are in the workforce? If and when I do get a job I'll be sure to let you know how it is!

It's a little unusual when you've spent most of your life in school preparing for this time and even if you didn't always like it you could depend on that predictability. Even if you complained you knew school was there and in the fall that's where you'd be. And then you graduate and then someone asks you what you're doing in the fall and you say that you have absolutely no idea! And after you've repeated that to the many people who ask you, it's hard not to feel a sense of panic somewhere in you. What's worse is when the fall comes and then people ask you what you're doing now and you say "oh I'm just looking for a job". It's normal, most of us have been there....but this morning at church someone asked me that question and I felt somehow less. And by less I mean I'm no longer a student, my education is no longer in progress. I mean I'm a lifelong learner and there's a good possibility that I may go back to school in the future but currently I have completed my program and I'm no longer studying in hopes of finishing. I'm finished. Somehow when you say "oh I'm just looking for a job" out loud it doesn't sound as good as "oh I'm currently studying _____(fill in the blank) in hopes of ________ (fill in the blank)! I know that this is what happens when you're done school, it's a natural process....but it doesn't feel very natural. It's like you've worked so hard to get through school and then you have to try and sell yourself and prove yourself just to land something hopefully in your field. It hardly seems fair. I suppose life isn't fair. The one truth that I somehow can rest in is that I serve a God who is bigger than all of this. He made me, He knows me and He has plans for me and He won't let my gifts go to waste. So I'll do my part and step through the doors that I can and trust God to open and shut them according to His plan and perhaps show me a window or two that I never knew was there.

So perhaps I'll get a call this week.....perhaps something else will come?

If I do get a can be sure a new wave of panic will come.

But it's natural right?!?

It's now 2:05 am and I think I might try sleeping. We'll see how it goes!

Sweet Dreams,
~The Kindred Spirit

Friday, 25 September 2009

Heaven is the Face

I'm not sure if you're familiar with Steven Curtis Chapman but he is a popular Christian artist. He's been singing for quite a long time.....I grew up listening to his stuff. A few months ago his daughter was killed in a horrible accident. Anyways he wrote a song called 'Heaven is the Face' for his new album 'Beauty Will Rise' coming out in November. The song is beautiful and the words are powerful. I've included the link....please check it out.


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Wednesday, 23 September 2009

I Caught The Bouquet!!!!

This is Amber's bouquet from her wedding 2 weeks ago! I caught it after she threw it and can you believe that this is the first bouquet I have ever caught? I actually fought for the thing...I knocked it right out of my best friend's was great! Anyways it is a beautiful bouquet.....the flowers are starting to dry out now but it's still gorgeous. Everyone was asking when I was getting married....I told them that I need to meet a man first....I'm really quite disappointed I didn't meet a Tennessee boy when I was in Nashville....boy I love those accents! I just had to share the pic of the bouquet.

My life is pretty exciting, eh?

Hope ya'll had a great day (like they say in Nashville),

Tuesday, 22 September 2009

I'm Back!!!!

Summer is over and I'm back in Wainfleet. I just got back on Sunday from my road trip to Nashville with Joy and can I just say that is was the best trip of my life! Nashville is an amazing city and there is tons of stuff to do. We spent our 5 days there going to the Grand Ole Opry, Country Music Hall of Fame, going to a Nashville Preds game, eating at some cool restaurants, spending some time in Franklin, roadtripping from Nashville to Memphis to tour Graceland....and those are just a few highlights. I have tons of pictures on facebook but I'll post a few of my favs.....

So my family has moved into our new house....which hopefully I will post some pics of soon. I'm adjusting very well to life in my large new room! I've also started job hunting which I must say is very stressful. I just hate the time between not having a job to getting an interview to transitioning into life at the new workplace.....but I'm just praying that the Lord has a job for me and hopefully I'll be able to stumble into it. I'm still working part time at my church as the children's ministry assistant which I'm enjoying so I'm thankful that I have something to work at until I find another something.

Yesterday was my 22nd birthday and it doesn't seem like long ago that I was blogging about turning 20! I guess a lot can happen in 2 years....I wonder what will happen in the next couple of years? It seems that this age brings about a lot of change and a lot of independence. I spent my summer living at camp (as you can read below) and it's a lot different coming home and trying to adjust back to living with your family. It's also different learning how to adjust to living with your parents when you somewhere along the way have become an adult least somewhat. The lines start to appear blurry and I guess it's quite frightening for me. I'm hoping once I find a job and settle into that then this new normal will actually begin to feel normal. I guess it's a lot of change at once. My best friend Diana left last week to return back to Haiti to teach for another year. I know she's where she's supposed to be but it's still hard that she's so far away. Pray for her if she comes to mind....she's doing great work!

Well I think that's all for now....I'm hoping to start getting back into blogging now that fall is here and summer is over...but I guess we'll see how it goes!

Sweet Dreams Y'all,
~The Kindred Spirit